It’s Fun To Relate

Isn’t it funny how sometimes the weather can really drastically change your mood? The other day it was pouring and I just felt unfocused and really really occupied. I was actually kind of worried that I was too stressed, or something like that. However today I was really fine. Even though it was really cold, and going from a great temperature to this is like getting the cold treatment in the shower. It is an absolute shock and very unbearable.

The picture above is from a book my Hunter S. Thompson. He is a great writer, and I need to get more of his stuff.

Today I saw four people trip, I throughly enjoyed it. I love it when people make stupid mistakes and try to cover it up. No one really fell so I can laugh at it now.

I am also going to start writing songs again. It has been a dream of mine to start a band for a while. So this summer I am going to get my dream guitar (Les Paul) even if my dad says I shouldn’t I used to be pretty good for teaching myself, so I am going to pick it up again and get a nice amp so I can actually sound good. I am a pretty good writer, and I just want to be able to have some things that I created. So I am going to pick up a nice camera to make some artistic pictures, and a gutair to make some songs. Just some thing I would like to do that I have been thinking about. I want to sound like the Silversun Pickups. Steve and I listened to them in the car while we were taking Beth back to Pitt on Super Bowl Sunday, and I really liked their sound. I would just think about going a little heavier and probably quicker, but I am deffinetly going to start off with something like their sound, and refine it over and over until I have something unique. If you think you would like to go in on this with me for real, let me know.

The Penguins won today, which made me just so happy. I was seriously in like a state of bliss after the game, in fact I still am. I looked over some Calculus before the game, and just read some of the sections in the middle of the chapter and still remembered it so I think I am going to do fine. Which is just more good news, and I am okay with that.

The good weather really made me want Spring/Summer to come sooner. Even spring break needs to get here sooner. Sure February is going by pretty fast, but still I want to start running again. This cold really screwed me, I was going great with 6 miles (hot damn!) every other day. Now, I am afraid I am not going to be able to keep up that pace because I lost a lot of muscle and that just sucks with being sick. Plus this summer we are joining a family gym so I can actually swim laps, lift, and run. I will be very happy in the summer to do all of that and hopefully make a lot of money. Back to spring break, Ryan and I were thinking about actually going somewhere now. Possibly somewhere warm, if not, I hope to at least go to a Pens game. I think there is only one over break that is home so it might be hard to get to it because everyone is going to want to be there.

I am thinking about changing hosting again >_< wordpress is kind of pissing me off, so I might buy a domain to blog on. iWeb is a lot more fun to create a site with so I think I might start on that to get something I like before I go off and buy something. It would be a lot nicer to code and get the pictures to look the way I want with iWeb and stuff though so I am not sure want I want to do. Free or nice, it’s always a tough decision.

Wake Up — It’s Cold

So this pretty much sums up everything that has went on since I last updated. I was pretty sick and got that way around Tuesday of last week. Hospitilized and everything, it sucked pretty badly. I didn’t really get to hang out with my family or friends instead I was pretty much stuck in bed, and just exhausted I still even have a really bad cough.

Therefore this weekend was pretty much just shit. I am now back at school and tomorrow is the worst day of the week. I have 8am Economics for an hour and fifteen minutes then I go right into Calculus. I hate calculus just because it is so boring and the concepts (or at least the way my teacher is teaching it makes no sense what so ever). I am just really glad I have a bunch of good math minded friends to ask what the hell is going on. This is pretty much the first math where it feels like I can’t figure it out. While I was sick I had to teach myself derivatives and I think I did pretty good but it still was not fun, and I don’t know unless I did perfect with the homework I’d rather have it taught to me, rather than racking my brain and being raped come next Monday (my first exam).

Did you ever have one of those feelings something big is about to happen? Well, a VERY big life changing event is going to happen to me soon. I know it, and I was pretty much told about it. No, it is not a good thing, and I cannot say anything about it yet because fortunately nothing has happened yet, but I know something is going down and it is going to crash hard.

This was a really shitty entry, but I really want to start to be able to talk about how I feel more. I have always had trouble with that, and I started to be able to, but eh I eventually always just retreat and pack away emotions like a man should.  I just think I can be a great writer and come tomorrow I think I am going to try. Tonight I just felt like I should update to tell everyone that I am alive again, and no cold can get the best of me. In fact, nothing can. To end I also have a new haircut! Its called the fauxhawk, so here is me with Tom Wilson (the cat) to show it off!

Spicing It Up

 

So I have decided to include a picture with every entry now, so it gives a little more to each entry. Also I really want to get back into photography. I have keep my photoshopping skillz (yes with a “z”) sharp, and this summer I really hope to get a nice Cannon or Nikon camera to take some really good pictures and edit them to start a nice collection.Basically this entry is mainly about what I want out of life. Honestly I have been thinking about it a lot, because college really makes you think about your future with all the down time, and when you sit in class and think to yourself”..why am I here right now?”Anyways I am pretty much going to make a bulleted list of what I want to do with my life.

• To buy a Porsche 911 GT# (I say “#” because right now the top is a *GT2, but who knows what will be there when I am able to buy it.)
• A great job, even if it is long hours, I want to make enough money to make sure everyone around me is comfortable.
• I want to talk for a living, sure a lot of people know that I am pretty good at it, but I think I could be a PR, HR, or whatever and just explain things to get people to understand. I’d love that, and I think I would be really great at it.
• Live somewhere warm, in *THIS kind of house. I am thinking right now the East coast, because I am pretty familiar with it. However, this summer we might make a trip out to LA to visit Nate (a friend from Pitt) and he said he loves it out there, and I would probably too, hell I am addicted to E! shows which mainly take place there anyways.
• Re-learn guitar. I think I might try and buy a new one this summer, but I have a couple of other purchases I would like to get first. Anyways the guitar would have to be a *Les Paul because damn they are pretty…I wish Ross (”A Voice Like Rhetoric” lead singer still had his and would sell it to me..)
• Buy my mom a *Mercedes SLK 350
• Buy dad a *1969 Chevy Chevelle SS
• Buy something for Cody, if I don’t run out of money
• Have a wonderful girl who loves me for me, great personality, smart, and still hot as hell. An artist would be an awesome match I think.
• Have a wedding somewhere completely random (if I decided to plunge) like Iceland, or Ireland.
• Tattoo(s) (sorry mom) but I’d like something that I designed and that would separate me from everyone else. However not anyways that can be seen if I don’t want it to be.
• Stay in touch with my great friend. I don’t know what I would do without them. Seriously Steve, Ryan, Jeremy, Julie, Amy, Andrew, Danny, and Robby. Just people I never want to lose touch with.
• Live with one of my friends for a year. I think it would be awesome to live with one of those people we all get along great and I think it would be a great exciting year.
• Read 1,000+ books. Yeah I know this one is a little stupid, but I have about 200 some done (I know I am a loser and I don’t count faggy text books that are for school), so I think it would be a pretty cool thing just to say that I have done.

Well that is all I can think of for now. If I think of any more I will update this and provide a link! I know I will accomplish everything on this list at one point in my life. Because I know damn well I am the most amazing person ever, and if I put my mind to it, I can do whatever I want, and with a little luck and some extra hard work I can provide for those I care about too.p.s. All links are asterisked because with the new layout it is hard to see what is an actual link, and I am too lazy to figure out how to make them appear differently.

Jude Law And A Semester Abroad

College is different this semester, its like that feeling that things are not the same anymore. However, the bad thing is that it is turning more so into high school for me. I am dreading getting up in the morning and sitting through a class that I am going to have to just memorized stupid pointless facts and regurgitate them on a piece of paper. This isn’t because my school isn’t challenging in fact I like that way that it is now, and I really don’t want anything harder its just I am not really into my major intensive courses yet. I guess that is normal because I am only in my “second freshmen” semester when really this is my second sophomore haha damn I have a lot of credits.

I have decided to study abroad. Not next year (because I have an apartment lease that I cannot get out of with a couple of friends) but the year after which would be my “junior” year. I have not decided where to go yet, however I know I want to go to an English country because damn if I am going to learn a new language before then. Besides I hated every language I took ever, I just do not think its fun, although maybe when I get older I will take more of a liking to it. Anyways the countries that are options are England, Scotland, Ireland, or Australia. The top two being of course England or Australia if you know me at all it shouldn’t have been that hard to guess. I already contacted my advisor, and the person in charge of the program here, and I have a meeting soon to see where exactly I should go ( I really hope I can live in london for a year).

I really just cannot wait for summer though, which is really bad to say this early in the semester, but I just want a couple of months off again haha and time to relax. I really want to go fishing a lot this summer, because I didn’t go enough last year, and it is really a great relaxing thing to do. I also want to redo my room, and go on a big road trip anywhere, or even better to no where. That would be just awesome, haha well with gas prices it would be horrible, but I’d really love to just go some where I have never been and just take pictures and have a great time. If you have any ideas on where to go let me know, and we will start planning this bitch now.

That is all I really have for now. And I am planning to update more, and write little notes so that I have stuff to talk about. I promise this will get more interesting in the next couple of days. For now I am off though, until next time.

Hey, there is a game tonight.

So a little has changed already since my last update.. I am back at school and Kelley and I have broken up. A lot of people said I should have expected it and that I should never have gotten back together with her, but the truth is I was glad I did, and I really did like her again. However, people change a lot and I just feel like I didn’t really get a chance to “date” her for that month. It just seemed as though she didn’t really give me a chance at all to see what I was like now.

I could understand having some issues because of how I was a dick last time we broke up, but she said she needed some time to come around and never really said she would give it only a month. That is what I am am most upset over. Basically she said everything was fine and that all she needed was some time, because she still liked me but wasn’t “head over heels” for me. Then she never really called or anything so I started to suspect the worst, especially with my background with relationships and I should have just suspected that things were not going to work out. Instead I just figured “eh, she’ll get over it we are just having a rough spot because of the last time.” I wish that were the case.

I now that it seems kind of shitty for me but the truth is I am really already over it, I just wish it wouldn’t have happened but I can’t make anything happen if she says that it doesn’t feel like we were dating then there is nothing I can really do about it, I know I am a perfect boyfriend, I just need to find the girl who makes me feel like she did.

Its kind of late to go on about her, because I can only assume she has moved on already and doesn’t really give a shit about me anymore as it is, but I can’t help to think about the last time we hung out (not that friday that didn’t count) but I believe it was that Tuesday that she just came over for a bit after tanning and studying with some friend who is just like her or something. However what we did was play wii, then she was really tired all of the sudden, so we put on a movie and she feel asleep. Even when she was sleep I thought she was the most beautiful girl ever, and though all we did that day was lay down because she was so tired it felt perfect to me. However, the thing that really got me was she woke up at one point and looked at me, then put her arm around me, and nuzzled back into my chest. That to me was like the most perfect thing ever. I thought to myself “wow, this is it, she is finally coming around!” needless to say about four days later I was pretty disappointed.

The day was tough it started out with two phone calls as warnings and as I hung up with the second one I got the text and still just couldn’t believe it. I was hurt yeah, but the thing was I thought things were going well. All I wanted to know was the truth and it wouldn’t have been so bad, but I was kept out of the light and that is what really sucked. However, my friends really helped me pull though especially Steve, Jeremy, Julie, Michie, Andrew, and yes even Palko. Without them I don’t know what I would have done all I know is that they really helped me talk and get things off my chest and I appreciated it so much I just wish I would have had more time with them than I did. From the bottom of my heart I thank you guys, and I know what it is like to love your friends now (I always thought that was a gay expression).

I just got done with my first math of this semester and it doesn’t really seem so bad my teacher is kind of weird and really nerdy (it takes a lot for me to call someone “nerdy”) but he seems pretty helpful and the class isn’t bad it is just business calc. I also have history at 1:25 and my intro to religion at 4:40. I want to change my intro to religion class even if I have to take like some weird one because that means I can’t get home on fridays until like 8pm because the class doesn’t end until 5:30.. Plus I don’t want to be ending that late again like my psyc that just sucks.

I will probably make another update about all of my classes tomorrow because I am done around 1:30 on Tuesday-Thursdays. Plus I still need to get my books and that is going to be a lot of money and stress >_<

It feels really good to get those things off my chest and last night when I was sitting here a lone it was really hard to not be homesick. I missed all of my friends and if I bothered you online I am sorry, but I also appreciate you keeping me company haha its been a hard couple of days on me, but I do believe in the philosophy that what doesn’t kill you will make you stronger. I just want my friends to know if they ever need any help at all they shouldn’t be afraid to ask and I am there for them, like they are for me.

Holy Shit I am Still Alive!

That title has two meanings. First, I haven’t updated in forever.. Yeah sorry about that, its not like anyone really cares anyway. I just get comments from like ED pills, and I don’t want them, because If I have an erection lasting for over 4 hours I have to call a doctor.

Before I move on the the second meaning, which is more recent than what all else I have to talk about, I need to do a somewhat of a year-end review. My first semester at college was actually really easy. I pretty much over studied for everything expect theatre, which I got a B in because I didn’t know that my final was going to be fucking 50% of the class.. yeah But I ended up with a 3.81 so it’s not all bad. Plus will all of my credits from high school (sooo easy and cheap ) I am pretty much already a sophomore.

Other than that I still don’t get out, and I made two friends. That pretty much ended my semester at IUP.I actually really like being home, which is probably bad for next semester. I am kind of having second thoughts about IUP, it’s just so far away from my good friends. If I were to pick another school I’d either go to a decent school for free and commute, or go so far away were there is no way I could come home at all, because this is just killing me. I don’t leave until the 13th and I am already dreading it… Oh well I just have to live it up for the next week or so.

However the holiday season was great. I got everything I wanted and New Year’s Eve was a totally blast. I am a little disappointed that my two main groups of friends and my girlfriend and her friends don’t all get a long but, that is the only thing that could have made it better. And honestly I am just totally happy right now. I am sure you are kind of questioning that I have a girlfriend, but yeah I do, and I know I haven’t really updated about it, but I just don’t really like to do that. Plus I kind of made some people mad trying to get her (back) and I thought it was just best to wait. Now that all that has blown over I can say it haha and I really don’t care what people think I do like her a lot.

Enough of rolling your eyes, on to the second thing I was talking about with the title. As you probably know it is snowing like nuts here tonight, as I was driving home. I am usually a safe driver and all I guess, especially with other people in the car, however tonight I just kind of went all out. I did about 60mph the whole way home and that was well fucking crazy. I guess I was just cold and wanted to be home as fast as possible, or I just wanted to see how good of a driver I am? Who knows all I know is that it was totally a bad move but I pulled it off.

All in all I am pretty happy with were I am right now. I wouldn’t really have it any other way so I guess I am going to keep doing what I am doing which is just relaxing and acting myself, not caring at all what other people think. Like I said I am in town until the 13th, so if you want to see me let me know

p.s. I am going to try and update like 50 times more this year.. pinky promise.

There Can Be Only One

So its that time of night, when I don’t feel like doing anymore work ahead of time (yes that is how sad I am) and i’m tired but can’t fall asleep. So I figured I would update my blog, because I should do it more often, I signed up for the damn account to try and talk about things.. I guess so far it has been popular however no one fucking comments (except my Aunt Cindy, who is amazing because she knows exactly when to send me starbucks cards because I just ran out and got another one! I cannot wait to go to Georgia again to see her.

I really don’t have much going on right now, I am just getting along with everyone and I feel great about myself so I can’t complain about anything at all. However, I know I need to met more people here. I pretty much talk to exactly six people here. I know that sounds horrible but yeah I keep in touch with almost everyone back home so its not that sad when you think about it. It just seems that everyone here is too busy with drinking and having all of that meaningless sex. You guys know I’m different and I don’t really like that. Sure I love to go out and have a good time, but I really do need my friends to get me out of the house haha. Without them back home it would be the same thing as here, I sit inside until I get bored then go running or play video games. To me college is just boring.

That makes me really want Thanksgiving break to come soon. That will also mean this semester is almost over and everyone loves that, new classes new professors, new people. I don’t know my schedule yet though because I am technically a sophomore thanks to basically free credits at WM so I cannot sign up for classes until this friday. I also am starting to run out of money, so I am a little screwed and going to have to go back to Sears soon. Hopefully I can also get that office job at my dad’s mill, that will be great money/experience/time to procrastinate.

Also Dethklok just gave me a seizure I think. The opening is so flashy I was typing and all of the sudden I couldn’t see. Wow, I wonder if I can sue and buy my porsche?

I have been pretty good at keeping a steady schedule on working out lately. However, running not so much. I get by with the amount of crunches I do, and push-ups eh I lift after running usually but whatever I don’t lose my arm mass easily. I haven’t been running in over a month and I think I might go tomorrow, not for any real particular reason but I just have nothing better to do. So I guess it is a good thing, at least I don’t get fat (I am a god).

Well I am pretty much out of ideas to talk about and make fun of, so I leave you with Gordo, who is a birdlike thing I made out of the center piece at the “family weekend dinner” last weekend because the family we had to share the table with was seemingly drunk and my parents couldn’t make fun of them with me because they have morals or some shit. 

Long awaited

So it has been a while since I updated, and it isn’t because I cannot think of anything. I am always full to the brim with ideas, many of them are pretty stupid and would involve me getting hurt so 90% of the things I think of go undone. (Unless Ryan is around, then he ends up getting hurt somehow)

Leopard is an amazing OS. I have been using it for about a week (developer’s version) and since sunday I have had the actual copy and I must admit they have made some great improvements. Some of the features I have grown acustom to are stacks, spaces, the new mail, and screen sharing (I love spaces!). I really like it, and for anyone who has a mac, get leopard it is really worth it and even improves performance more than I thought it would. To anyone who doesn’t have a mac, get one.

Not too much is going on really in my life, just school and when I come home I hang out with Danny, Steve, Sam, and Catilyn. It has been pretty fun and I really enjoy college. I am a pretty social person if I can get out, but I do well alone or with people. I met some cool kids, and we are getting an apartment next year, so that will be pretty fun especially because I will be saving up for a HD plasma 50″ TV! Home now is kind of depressing, when ever I go home I am usually thinking about the work I have to do back at school and that is pretty shitty either that or I am getting people together to do something. I also recently tired to hang out with a crush of mine from the summer but that didn’t go so well. By that I mean we ended up not seeing each other at all. I am not upset over it, because I pretty much know we really never hit it off, but I do really think she is awesome and just want to be friends (At least from what I can *cough* “recall” *cough* from a conversation with Jenna, who I miss dearly and needs to fucking talk to me, I am right with thinking this and I am okay with it.)

Other than that, I probably should be in bed because I have a 8:00am class but eh I only can sleep 5 hours out of the night anyways so it doesn’t matter right now, but if I am not asleep by 2:00am then it gets to be bad haha I also have a psychology test tomorrow which should be pretty easy because all of her tests so far seem to be just common understanding. So I am not worried about that.

Guitar Hero 3 is out, and I really wanted to play it, but I don’t think anyone got it for the Wii (that I know of) and I do not have $90 to spend to get it right now. I am also pretty excited to go back to Pittsburgh some weekend, hopefully to see a Penguin’s game, but also because Ryan and I are really good friends and Nate is really cool, plus the other two roommates were awesome as well. We all got along really well, and it kind of makes me wish I would have gone to Pitt, but I am happy here as well, and I am already here so too bad haha.

That pretty much wraps up my entry for tonight and I am really sorry for taking so long to update..I just tend to delay and put off things, but expect more from me, and probably in short lengths too. Also keep an eye out for maybe an actual domain and a well done website soon! ‘Night everyone.

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Note To Self..

If Cody has a kid before me, who the hell am I kidding he will, this is how I plan to solve that problem..

That is pretty much it..

I Am Going To Start A pyramid scheme..

I really have nothing at all to talk about, just felt like updating and show off the new layout. However, I really do think I could make a pyramid scheme, all it takes is a simple product and a mystery box. Yes, no one can resist the mystery box.

Oh yeah! I am going to see Brand New on the 8th of December with Nate, Ryan’s friend, at Pitt. It is going to be fucking awesome, they are also playing with Thrice who I really like as well. It will be the best concert ever by far. I am also not going to see Jack’s Mannequin meh, I didn’t really like them to begin with just trying to get someone to go with me and it didn’t work. Oh well, I have pretty much washed my hands of that.

Lastly This is a picture I drew on facebook. Later people